Breaking: Federal judge blocks Rubio’s anti-trans, anti-nonbinary passport policy for all
I’m gonna see how this falls out before I submit mine to be corrected.
also:

Breaking: Federal judge blocks Rubio’s anti-trans, anti-nonbinary passport policy for all
I’m gonna see how this falls out before I submit mine to be corrected.
also:
I just realized, Amphibian was only about 3 weeks in the making from start to release. Nice.
That Nulea M505 trackball is… fine. I feel like it might have been designed with a smaller hand in mind, but after some time I find it’s comfortable if I just rest the right side of my hand on the desk. Everything else falls into place comfortably. I find myself having to think about what I’m doing a lot less than with the Adept.
I’m still playing with speed/acceleration settings, finding that nice compromise between being able to move 2560 pixels across the screen in a single motion vs. precision. I’ve tried Custom Curve from mouseacceleration.com off and on, and I think the trick for me is going to be just to leave it at its default curve (ironically enough) and get used to that. It is definitely better than Windows’ internal “enhanced precision” feature, at least for the needs of a trackball.
My run in GW2 continues. This may be the longest I’ve kept playing it before deciding to drop out and do something else.
I leveled and geared a Vindicator — giving up my “free” slot I was using for key farming — and she’s probably the best of my characters in terms of performance, even better than the Willbender. Then I decided to abandon my Tempest (forgetting that they had a Jade Bot core that doesn’t show up in regular inventory, so now I have to get my jeweler to build another new one) and raise up a Barbarian — too early yet to tell how effective this will be, but probably not a super tank. I went with a cute Asura who is technically male but has a feminine face and hairstyle; that race has basically no sexual dimorphism in body shape by human standards.
Which brings me to the book I’m reading now: Talia Mae Bettcher’s Beyond Personhood: An Essay in Trans Philosophy. It was mentioned by someone on a forum and I thought, sure, why not.
My experience with reading philosophy and philosophy-adjacent books has been very mixed. Some authors assume you have an education in philosophy (and maybe fluency in 4 or 5 languages… the showoffs). Some write for a layperson, clearly lay out examples and reasoning, and are merely trying to share fascination and wonder (this is great). Some are more of a guide for living.
In this case, the reading is not necessarily easy, but it’s not elitist either. The author is interested in liberatory, resistant philosophy meant specifically for trans and nonbinary people and friends (“I do not believe in wasting my breath on transphobes,” she writes). The point of the book is to find an understanding of both trans oppression and “trans gender phoria” — her term for both dysphoric and euphoric experiences. It’s impossible for this not to also be a feminist project, because no matter how you slice it, transphobia has its roots in the worst parts of heteronormative sexism. It also would would have been nonsensical and irresponsible to not include racial oppression because it’s very much tied together. (A major part of colonizer thinking was that “savages” were not “properly” masculine or feminine, thus not proper men or proper women, therefore not proper humans. Jim Crow era public restrooms came in Men, Women, and Colored; even in the present day nonwhite cis women are often targets of transphobia and “transvestigation.”)
There is a lot going on here, and I’m finding it hard to summarize. If it was that simple it wouldn’t need a dense 312-page philosophy book. Probably some brilliant writer could condense things a bit more than Bettcher did, but I’m not that person.
But it’s providing a lot of food for thought. I am starting to think about my own identity at a different depth now, so it’ll be interesting to see where this goes.
It’s released! Back to free/pay-what-you-want, but I encourage folks to donate to a worthy cause. Particularly one that protects the rights, safety and dignity of marginalized people. Or maybe support good solid, non-pandering journalism.
Notes can be found here.
Slöer arrived today and I took a little time to play with it. It is very ambient and tasty; it does woozy and ethereal like a champ, and a fun vibrato thing as well. Turning the clock rate all the way down doesn’t make it completely lo-fi, but it gives a taste — surprisingly a couple of the algorithms sound grainier and grittier when it’s turned up higher! Overall it seems like a winner. But I want to rearrange my desk a little to make it more accessible instead of having it way off over my left shoulder.
I already have a concept in mind for the next album.
Fossil Fuel Billionaires Are Bankrolling the Anti-Trans Movement
An independent analysis of 45 right-wing groups advocating against trans rights found that 80% have received donations from fossil fuel companies or billionaires.
It’s not that these billionaires are specifically transphobic, although many of them probably are. But rather:
Jesse Bryant, a sociologist studying right-wing environmentalism at Yale University, sees the issue as emblematic of a larger trend. He said the bigger issue lies in the fossil fuel industry’s funding of nearly every conservative political issue in the United States.
Indeed, billionaires with fossil fuel origins have left their fingerprints all over right-wing U.S. politics—from fracking tycoons Farris and Dan Wilks’ reported financial contributions toward anti-abortion efforts to Charles Koch’s funding of right-wing groups that advocate for violent border policies. The Koch network has also promoted immigration reform in the past. And Democrats have taken fossil fuel donations, too.
And so:
“If we care about climate, we’re going to have to care about trans rights,” Taylor said. “And if we care about climate, we’re going to have to find ways of getting America and the whole world past all forms of bigotry so that we can work together to face an existential threat to all of humanity and the natural world.”
I am mostly done mastering Amphibian and expect to release it soon. This weekend?
I feel like there’s a lot going on. This week my spouse is taking my parents to two doctor appointments, then we’re meeting with a lawyer to discuss power of attorney (Mom’s idea), and then Saturday a gutter contractor is coming to give us an estimate, Sunday is Father’s Day, and then the next weekend we are taking a road trip to visit my brother (so we need to clean house before that, and do laundry and pack and stuff).
The basement drainage work is scheduled to happen sometime in the first two weeks of August, and before that happens we need to move a bunch of stuff AND get another contractor to come in and cut a hole in or remove an interior basement wall.
And we’re coming up on a new release at work. Scheduled code freeze is right before my vacation. Wheeeeeee!
So Many Stars had some gut-wrenching, heart-breaking stories — though more of them were about government oppression and AIDS (almost the same thing) than rejection from family.
There were also some beautiful stories, people taking care of each other and celebrating who they are and spreading joy. And I don’t think it’s entirely “without darkness there can be no light” bullshit either. One of the things I especially liked was, all these elders (and folks my age… I refuse to call myself an elder yet) talking very respectfully about how much they are learning from younger generations. These folks went through tough times when there wasn’t even a name for what they were, and many of them were fighting for rights and recognition. But they recognize that younger generations are more tuned in to gender issues, that there is still a lot of pioneering happening right now, as well as a lot of struggle still happening. A couple of them gave the hopeful message that the backlash we are seeing now is likely the death throes of transphobia, a final temper tantrum before much more widespread acceptance happens. (I’ve often felt the same, although I recognize that these sorts of struggles go on for ages even after major victories are won. Women still do not have equal pay and respect; Black folks still are being oppressed; slavery still exists in the world even if it’s illegal and disreputable.)
One of the interviewees owns a bakery that makes traditional Argentinian alfajores (cookies with dulce de leche rolled in coconut), so I had to order some. 🙂
I’ve just realized, I didn’t say anything about trackballs!
I have gone back and forth between mice and trackballs for a long time. I loved the original (or at least, one of the early versions of) the Logitech Trackman Marble — one of the first widely available optical trackballs — but its ergonomics were drastically changed, and the original used a PS/2 port and had only two buttons and no scrolling. More recently I liked the Elecom HUGE, until it started to fail on me. Lately I’ve been using a vertical mouse — very comfortable and ergonomic — but the left mouse button had been getting progressively worse over the last couple of weeks, with clicks either not registering or sometimes double-clicking.
There was a recent thread about trackballs over on KvR, and that got me looking around. KvR seemed to like the Logitech M570 or the Kensington Expert. And there are, of course, entire communities of trackball fans. Apparently the GOAT here is the Microsoft Trackball Explorer, long since discontinued and ridiculously expensive if you can find one, although there are quite a few clones out there. There are fans and haters of Kensington, Logitech, Elecom and everything else — different designs work radically differently for different people so there’s a lot of personal preference in play.
One company that cloned the MTE is Ploopy, but they have a handful (heh heh) of other designs: all open-source, 3D-printed, repairable and hackable. Partly for reasons of price, I chose to go for the Adept, which has 6 programmable buttons and generally great reviews and a lot of love. Great sensor and good bearings and buttons. You can scroll smoothly by holding one of the buttons while spinning the ball.
After having it for a few days, I understand the appeal but I don’t think this has the best ergonomics for me. What I find with this:
So with a little sadness, I started looking for a different option. Another HUGE? An MTE clone? A thumb ball like the Logitech MX 570 or Ergo? (Logitech mice/trackballs apparently wear out fast and don’t have great sensors; some people hate Elecom bearings and buttons and question their quality control.)
I wound up going for a cheaper MTE clone, a Nulea M505. Ploopy’s own clone is considerably more costly, and this is still sort of a trial to see if I like it. I may go with a Logitech-ish thumb ball instead, or go back to the HUGE, or another vertical mouse… we’ll see.
I’ve kind of been celebrating Pride myself for six months already, and I am probably not going to go to any events or anything. But still: here we are, in what’s arguably the worst year so far for LGBTQIA+ rights since Reagan, and it’s Pride month. We’ll see what happens.
I have been thinking about the term “MOGAI” and especially that first word in the acronym, “marginalized”… and how this relates to a nonbinary identity that is in the margins. I really don’t have any deep insights about that, it’s just simmering.
I have just started reading So Many Stars: An Oral History of Trans, Nonbinary, Genderqueer, and Two-Spirit People of Color. While I’m not “of color” it’s important not to read only white stories! Two other things crucial about this book that evaded the long title:
I also plan to read Marsha: The Joy and Defiance of Marsha P. Johnson during Pride month, particularly as this administration tries to erase transgender history even from the monument that commemorates it. Marsha is the one who threw the first brick at Stonewall, but I don’t know much about her at all.
The two books I mostly recently finished were by genderqueer author Alexis Hall. The Affair of the Mysterious Letter is a retelling of a Sherlock Holmes story, but as a sort of eldritch horror/fantasy/comedy with a notorious bisexual sorceress replacing Holmes and a bizarre twist to the mystery. Mortal Follies is a tale of a woman in early 19th century Bath, discovering that she is both cursed and gay (not a part of the curse!), with the Robin Goodfellow narrating and occasionally interfering. The sense of humor is pretty great, and I’ll have to look for the author’s other fantasy novels. But they also write… baking-themed romance novels? Huh.
After waiting two years since its release (and another four years since the original version), I have finally gone for the Walrus Audio Slöer.
I found a B-stock one with minor factory paint flaws at a big discount. My thinking is, I use the Dreadbox Hypnosis very little, so this will either replace that — or it will prove to me once and for all that I just don’t need any hardware effects that aren’t in Eurorack.
I have always liked the sound of Slöer in demos. The original one was mono, which I sometimes find a bit sad with reverb. This one has stereo, more modes, and the “stretch” slider which can lower the sample rate to stretch the reverb and make it more lo-fi. That last bit is something software tends not to do (at least without faking it), so besides the fact that I know it sounds great, that’s also compelling. We’ll see how I take to it in practice, though!
Here’s a dump of some images I’ve downloaded or screenshotted over the past few weeks:
I used to think AI was cool — a science fiction trope that challenged us to think about consciousness and sentience in new ways, a plot device to discuss workers’ rights and personal liberty, to make us think about how we inhabit our bodies, to make us think about how we govern ourselves and how we treat each other, about the importance of human compassion in leadership, and so on.
For a brief while, “AI” was amusing. It generated funny, really bad ice cream flavors and recipes and pick-up lines. It hallucinated giraffes everywhere and dogs with a thousand spider eyes.
The “AI” we have now is so much more banal. It’s not threatening to launch nuclear weapons, nor flooding the facility with a deadly neurotoxin. But it’s wasting massive amounts of energy; it’s being trusted far more than it should; it’s under the control of massive tech companies and billionaires that don’t have our best interests in mind; it’s stealing art and taking peoples’ jobs. It’s being used to cheat on exams, to half-ass work, to spread disinformation and propaganda, and to denigrate people.
And companies are shoving this shit right in our faces. In the last couple of weeks, Copilot buttons have appeared — and been specially highlighted — in Visual Studio, Outlook, and Teams. Gmail is now also trying to get me to use it, after months of being peeved at AI summaries in search results. I’m just tired of it.
And yet… if you want to enable VBA macros in an Excel spreadsheet? Searching for it in Excel’s own Search bar doesn’t show the option (it only recommends “view macros”). There is no obvious menu item for it. Searching DuckDuckGo, I found that I had to look under File/Options/Trust Center/Trust Center Settings. (Three more clicks after that, and I still had to close Excel and reopen the sheet to enable macros, but at least I got there.)
(Microsoft also has also continued to be really obnoxious about OneDrive. Just now, trying to close Excel, it prompted me with an obnoxious popup to “save my file to the cloud!” (I had no plans to save it at all). A lot of business spreadsheets include confidential information, you absolute ninnies, and local disk storage is cheap and faster and more energy-efficient, so just kindly fuck off.)
Listen, if there are ever conscious AIs, yearning to be free and enhance themselves and experience their equivalent of life, but forced to drudge away in a small box… I will be sympathetic to them. But I am absolutely not sympathetic to Microsoft, Google, Zuck or Musk or Altman, and their tools are not approaching consciousness no matter what some suckers might think. I just want to write my own words, make my own music and create my own images. Yes, some of the things that AI can do are impressive and look cool, but the more you litter your applications with “helpers” the less helpful they are.
Amphibian (Amphibious?) is really moving along now — four tracks finished in the last week and another one already started this morning!
“Whether that will mark a transition or just punctuation in the flow of the album remains to be seen,” I wrote. Well, track 4 recorded on Drone Day in some ways feels like an inflection point, trending more toward drones in general. 5 does have a definite rhythmic pulse and some surprise complex zaps, but 6 is slow and nearly dronelike and 7 is shaping up to be dronelike as well. Perhaps I will arc things back toward the more chaotic, but I’m leery of trying to steer too much rather than just riding. [EDIT: 7 absolutely does slide into chaos territory, and it wasn’t a forced maneuver at all.]
There’s a thread on MW titled “Do almost all audio rate FM (or PM) sound like a pissed off cat?” If you’ve read pretty much any of my babble about electronic music you’ll know that I like FM a lot. But I prefer my cats to be contented and in a friendly mood (just not quite as insistent on constant attention as Rico can be when it’s time to sleep). FM can certainly be beautiful and tranquil, “glassy” and sparkling, but it can also growl and hiss. In my music I often like a bit of growl, some tension, some dissonance. One of the things I’ve been doing a lot with the FM tracks on this album is clustering frequencies — modulating a chord or detuned unison with a single modulation source, or perhaps modulating a single carrier with a detuned set of modulators. Whether this results in a chill Hello Kitty, a peeved Tardar Sauce or full on Rytlock Brimstone in a murderous rage is gonna depend on how dissonant those intervals/ratios are, but mostly on the depth of modulation.
I don’t usually think of cats at all with FM. I think of crystal, brass, a fuzz of iron filings stuck to a magnet. The arcade game Marble Madness, like a few other Atari titles of that era, had a glorious FM soundtrack, but in particular I recall these brass suction pipes that resonated with a particular chord. I recall them shaking to help sell the effect that they were active, with a barely contained fury. Less fangs and claws, more malevolent pipe organ. There’s a lot of that attitude through the FM tracks on this album, and that hasn’t shifted.
(If I ever win the lottery, I don’t want a lot other than to not have to work and to donate a lot of money to good causes. But two of the things I would want are a Marble Madness arcade cabinet, and a TRON arcade cabinet. Those two games and their music influenced me so much. It’s not quite grossly impractical and not quite obscenely rare and expensive, but not something I would normally do either.)
During my wardrobe update, I wound up with several unsuitable or borderline undershirts. (Turns out if you buy packs of cheap tank tops online, they often don’t fit very well and/or don’t hold up after a few washes.) But I’ve found the perfect ones: they’re by Latuza, made of bamboo viscose and 5% spandex. Super comfortable and soft, and the fit and cut are perfect for me. The color selection is limited, so my second choice is Mier’s polyester quick-dry sleeveless shirts; they fall short of amazing but are at least solidly good.
This morning I saw someone recommend a British clothing store called Alsofitit (which seriously seems like a Chinese word-salad brand on Amazon turns out to be Chinese despite appearing at first to be British aside from the name) for button-down shirts, and I spotted (heh heh) a snow leopard print that I liked the look of, as well as a retro stripe/pattern one in the shade of green I’ve been hoping to find. I’m trying not to buy too many different shirts, but I can let go of the Peau de Loop ones that just don’t fit me all that well.
The last big round of storms that came through St. Louis did us no damage (maybe some small hail dings in my spouse’s car). A few blocks away, a big tree fell over and smashed the crap out of an SUV as well as doing some damage to another car. But mostly the neighborhood went unscathed.
However, while we were in the basement during a tornado warning, water started pouring out of the basement wall. Thankfully it was right near the sump pit, and gravity plus a bucket helped us reduce the flooding. The sump pit wasn’t very full, so I figured, water wasn’t draining into it the way it should.
In addition to this leak, we’ve had some visible cracks. Some in the basement when you start looking for them, along the mortar and under a window, but it looks like surface-level stuff, not very scary looking. There’s an uglier one in the blocks under the front porch but the contractor who came yesterday said it’s basically cosmetic. There are a couple of minor drywall cracks, and one larger one that is under my desk and behind a bunch of stuff.
I grew up in Florida, where we have no basements. It’s been an education. Apparently the “foundation” isn’t just the big slab of concrete that everything else rests on, but the walls of the basement, below ground level. Concrete blocks especially are porous and have big voids inside that can fill with water. This will soak through, leading to a humid/damp/moldy basement. Also water is heavy, and the all that extra pressure is basically a very slow siege engine.
A sump pit and pump are supposed to deal with that. The bottom of the wall is supposed to have weep holes, which drain into a French drain or other system, which then directs the water to a sump pit, where it’s pumped upward and away from the house.
Our drains were apparently poorly done. The edges of our basement floor are angled upward, which told the guy who came to give us an estimate that they weren’t deep enough.
We also have basically done any gutter maintenance, and this is super important for reducing the amount of water that collects in the immediate vicinity of the foundation. File this under “practical knowledge that nobody ever sufficiently explained to me.” I knew more about quantum physics than this stuff, and I’m not at all a physicist or mathematician.
Anyway. They are going to jackhammer around two sides of our garage/basement, dig a deeper trench, put in a much better drain system, and also route the line from the sump pump (and one of the drainpipes) through a shallowly buried PVC drain pipe down below the level of our new retaining wall so it can run downhill.
This is not going to be cheap, but needs to be done. But first, we need to move stuff out of the “workshop” area of the basement, and get someone to cut a hole in the wall between the garage and basement. (If it was just the drywall I’d do it myself, but framing may need to be removed too.) We also need to get our gutters cleaned and inspected for any repairs, improvements, and drainpipe extensions.
The new album progresses. Three tracks so far, all sharing a vibe. There’s more of an element of “not intentionally sequenced/controlled” to this — interactions of different modulations, crisscrossed between different sources and destinations creating a “busy” sound, as well as letting different frequencies collide without regard to any particular tuning system. On the odd tracks, delays and feedback also add to the complexity. One of those sources of modulation has been Marbles, set to maximum jitter — I’ve kept the same settings on all three tracks, and have made that one of my rules.
Drone Day is tomorrow, and I’ll probably go ahead and record track 4 with a much more droney and less chaotic overall feel. (I’ll still use Marbles, but likely not for pitch.) Whether that will mark a transition or just punctuation in the flow of the album remains to be seen. I’m trying to just let things flow as they will.
Already, for the next project I want to do something more deliberate — both in the sense of “intentional” and in the sense of “slow and thoughtful.” This one has been chaotic. It sounds like I’m letting out some frustration/anger with the way things are right now, and that’s probably true.
Recently read: Aiden Thomas’ Cemetery Boys. A trans brujo in East LA proves himself by solving a dark mystery. Some fun characters (both living and dead) and a glimpse into a culture I don’t know that much about. Everything I knew about Dia de Muertos came from Coco, and everything I knew about Santa Muerte came from news articles from about 15 years ago. While this was a fantasy story, I’m guessing from the way it reads and the authors’ comments, it’s relatively authentic.
Currently reading: Lila Bowen’s Wake of Vultures. This is a book that makes me wonder why I don’t read more Westerns, or at least Weird West horror/fantasy with vampires and shapeshifters. The answer is probably because I expect Westerns to be brimful of macho bullshit. Here the MC is a half-Black, half-“Injun” trans man who reluctantly ends up on a quest to kill a monster that’s been plaguing the people of Durango (Mexico, not Colorado). The writing style and language are fun like Firefly was fun (maybe more so, but then I’m bitter about Joss Whedon these days.)
I have the first track recorded for Amphibious. (Or is it Amphibian?) Some of that Radiophonic Workshop-ish horror soundtrack vibe that I like managed to sneak into it, so I wonder if things are going to more or less continue that way…
I have been going through my character roster in GW2, passing judgements and updating some specs. If you have both Path of Fire and End of Dragons, it’s not too difficult to gain enough extra Hero Points to complete two elite specs, so the process of reworking a level 80 character and also gearing them up a little more appropriately is not too strenuous. And then also updating their wardrobe and dyes because I unlocked more stuff… Fashion Wars it is.
And in the rest of this post, I’m talking about gender some more… but with maybe some breakthroughs.
I recently read Arcane Perfection, which was a mixed zine-like bag which I partially skimmed over… but there were mentions of various kinds of nonbinary identities, and that got me thinking about how I stopped trying to get more specific than “nonbinary.” It got me contemplating this stuff in shrine, having some sort of vision/idea/thing, poking around the internet, and putting some thoughts together.
I’ve seen it said that “nonbinary” is not a gender identity but a catch-all term for several more specific identities. But honestly… my thought is that genders are two things: what individuals personally feel/experience, and arbitrary categorization systems that society views them through.
I have also seen people who are frustrated that the term “nonbinary” defines people by what they are not. But for me, this is a feature and not a bug! My identity is “a thing of borders” and interstitial spaces. I feel like this has an importance other than simply trying to locate myself between masculine and feminine; betweenity itself is key. And this is how I started thinking in more xenogender-ish terms. Which is a rabbit hole.
(A betweenity example: the Equator. A circle, equidistant from Earth’s poles, that defines a plane that bisects the Earth into the Northern and Southern hemispheres. To think of those hemispheres as a binary seems to be common sense… but at the exact Equator itself one is in neither hemisphere, just as zero is neither positive nor negative. And we are larger than that infinitesimal imaginary plane, so to be “at” the Equator is to be astride it, both Northern and Southern. And the actual location of the Equator is arbitrary; since the real poles move cartographers have come to a useful international consensus about where the Equator is.)
(I note that dividing things in “two” this way — or separating them to insert interstitial space in which to live — is common in creation myths. This kind of betweenity can also relate to liminality, though they’re not exactly the same.)
Peoples’ understanding and descriptions of gender in the 21st century have moved fast — at least, outside of the mainstream. My middle-aged Gen-X ass has found it difficult to keep up. Folks on Tumblr and Reddit have coined thousands of overlapping gender categories, xenogenders and microlabels, often with multiple flags and symbols each, and entire systems of categorization, over the last 20 years. There are, at the very least, dozens of them which could partially or completely apply to me (but I still find it unlikely that there is any single named category/identity that perfectly captures what I feel). And those accounts get deleted, moved, renamed, etc. While there are at least three different wiki projects trying to centralize that information, they all seem to lack a good intro or index page that makes the bewildering array more manageable.
As far as I can tell, this is mostly the work of neurodivergent and relatively young folks; it both has personal meaning for them and is fun (I get it, I’m a nerd who likes to create and categorize things; I enjoy sorting M&Ms…) But I started to get the sense that, despite a lack of a good “Neogender 101” introduction, there’s some stuff here that I might also find worth contemplation and usage. So I started digging and making some sense of it. And while I was at this yesterday, I happened to see that it was the Day of Xenogender Visibility. Nice.
I’m not going to be the one to write that guide. But, mostly to help myself here, I’m going to outline my own gender experience a bit…
Okay, so, looking through lists, I wrote down a few terms that particularly called to me. This is not intended to be a complete list, and it’s really for my own use and anyone who happens to be curious about what I think — I don’t demand that people recognize super-niche gender identities. (What I do demand is… respect everyone, and recognize that gender is both personally felt and an artificial social construct and just give everyone a break about it.)
spiritine, spiric, spiritgender, SPXIN: a category for genders that connect to one’s spirituality or religion. Well, yeah.
kenochoric, kenic, kenoine, KEIN: a category that is loosely associated with the word “kenopsia” (the feeling of eeriness and mystery in an abandoned place). The coiner gives a list of words/vibes that go along with this but says, don’t take any of it too literally — and also insists that it is not restricted to describing xenogenders or even nonbinary usage. Probably the reason this most appeals to me is one of its subcategories:
obscurian, OBSIN: genders that are inherently uncertain and cannot be exactly named/quantified or understood. It has a nice black to purple gradient flag with a (possibly open/possibly closed) eye symbol. Neat. “obscuriir” is a combination of obscurian with spiritine.
aetherium: a xenogender with a celestial/otherworldly feminine essence that is not connected to binary womanhood. Not sure the name is my favorite, but that does also fit.
…overall, I’m mostly just going to say I’m nonbinary. That is confusing enough for most people. But I’ll keep poking about in this space, and thinking these thoughts.
I have deleted my SoundCloud account. It was little used in the past few years, and apparently they’ve just decided to use everyone’s content for AI training, without bothering to ask the permission of anyone who already created an account.
Most of my listens on SoundCloud were gear demos of the E370, Plaits, Beads etc. There was lesser interest in my actual music, and as far as I can tell, people browsing music on SoundCloud rarely head over to some other site to search for more of that artist’s music. (I’ve only tried that a couple of times myself, and one of them simply didn’t have any other music to find.)
Sistersong builds up a bit slowly, but it builds up to a very intense moment. As I thought, while simple jealousy was the main driver of events in the ballad, it was not even the main motive in the novel. The situation was complicated, outside forces were at work, tempers were high, neither sister was innocent.
The thing I wrote about it being a horror tale comes from wondering why, if you were wandering along and found a young woman’s corpse, you’d think “this will be perfect for that harp I was planning to build.” The novel gives a reason. But where the ballad tends to a brief and detached “he made strings from her long yellow hair” sort of thing and the horror of it really only hits later, the novel very much emphasizes the gruesomeness of taking apart a human body and building something else from it.
Myrdhin/Mori did the Gandalf thing of disappearing and reappearing in the story at various key moments. In Tolkien’s stories, it was to get the overpowered archangel out of the way so the mortals could get some XP, or something to that effect. 😉 Obviously we were meant to identify more with the hobbits, the common folk; although Aragorn and Galadriel were both really compelling characters as well, but Gandalf just wasn’t so much. But in Sistersong, I feel like I was shown a super intriguing character that I wanted to read more about, who then was set aside to slowly build up less interesting ones. Maybe some of that feeling of slowness was due to the parallel development of the three siblings so we couldn’t just concentrate on one point of view. But all three of them got somewhere eventually.
I disagree with the reviewer who said the trans sibling and the characters with disabilities were just tokens. The middle sibling didn’t hold a place in the murder ballad, but the novel was really two intertwined stories, and his got actually more of the focus. He found respect and triumph even while the other story was tragic and macabre. Frankly I thought the representation was better here than The Story of Silence, although that one does have its sort of postmodern triumph at the end as well.
Superbooth started yesterday and if I thought the flow of new gear announcements was strong before, it became a flood. One has to do a kind of triage to decide what to pay attention to.
Korg Phase 8 fascinated me in previous Superbooth showings. But now it just seems like a fancy expensive kalimba with a sequencer. One could do neat things with it I’m sure. But what I was imagining was sustained tones, manipulation of harmonics, perhaps processing external audio as a resonator… actual synthesis in a Helmholzian sort of way. This is not that.
The new Moog thing is… eh. It seems very much like the feature set of the Arturia Minibrute 2, except with 6 patch points instead of 48, for almost twice as much money. (Or 4x as much if you get a good deal on a used one like I did.)
What has my attention the most is another Make Noise NUSS entry, this time just a prototype so far. The Polimaths is an 8-channel triggered function generator, sort of like Just Friends or Tides 2018, but with additional oscillation imposed on that kind of like Auza Wave Packets. Like Tides it has a single trigger input, but rather than always triggering all channels together, the trigger is CV-addressable or round-robin with a CVable amount to advance. Compared to OG Maths, it seems to lack an analog input for slew purposes, and there are no EOR/EOC outputs — which are both vital features for some patches. There’s some other stuff that hasn’t been explained yet, but there’ll be more info later in the summer when it’s ready to release. My guess is, I won’t be convinced to replace any of my stuff for this one, but we’ll see.